As another year comes and goes, having a diagnosis of Smoldering Multiple Myeloma makes it a bit challenging as you don’t know whether to be happy that you are a year older or that your cancer has not started acting up.
Wow, that is a depressing sentence.
To be true, after almost three years since my doctor told me what was up, I have settled into the routine of “life as normal” since my cancer has remained in the same state… active but not aggressive.
I can say that I don’t think about it day in and day out unless I read something about Myeloma or my three month blood work notice comes up in iCal. I have learned to live with it and am not letting it dominate my thought process.
That’s not to say that sometimes I get hit with a wave of “Oh my God, I have cancer”, cuz I do, but not very often.
At the end of the day, I know what I have so that is power, I have support of doctors and family who are cheering me on every day, and I have done all that I can do to be a healthy person with or without cancer. Really, that is all any of us can do.
So, there it is. Another year living with a cancer diagnosis. Another year of maybe this year, but also another year of live as normal or as normal as can be. That is pretty good and if 59 comes the same way, I will consider that a win and just copy and paste this post then.
Hugs to all,